i was riding in a car with someone who asked if we could meet or somoething vaguely on the lines of 'is this ok/is what i've done ok', and i replied smth like yes, then i stopped myself and said "no, actually its not. its not okay, and im not going to let you do this anymore, im done getting my hopes up." and i looked out thw window and the sun had turned everything blurry passing to gold and i was at peace and it was the feeling of slight bitterness/sicckness but being overshadowed by greater peace and calm, like knowing illness is being drained away.

i think it was important for me to see that because now i better understand how sometimes the right decisions dont feel right or they can be accompanied by negative feelings. just because its the best thing to do doesnt mean it wont hurt a bit

other than that, more of the weird minecraft looking place though havent played in a while. so i could fly over areas and land. its a very tentative mix of some of the super high up flying in genshin impact where you have to make a careful landing. im not sure what the full map was like but i think i went to the main beach area, though i dont recall either the tunnels or docks/side buildings & bars there like usual. in many dreams i phase in and out of being a conscious Myself and being other people. it feels a bitt like wearing a differently flavored skin where the root is the same but everything else is different--so in the dream for some time i was a girl, though the 'self' remained there vaguely. im pretty sure there was a romance but im strugglung to recall the girl it involved or any of the details.i also remember something abuot exile, being tricked or betrayal idk??

its been a while! i needed to talk about repeating patterhns & meanings

dopnt get mne wrong im nit one of those people like "if you see a yellow butterfloy in your dream it mneans you wiull get a C on your next paper" and i try not to read extra meanings but i have found alot of insight can be gathered from observing the patterns that repeat themselves despite the circumstances so i definately believe there is something important there. for my entire life up until i was medicated, i never had a single dream where i wasnt running from something or being chased. the circumstances and people were always different but it was Always the same thing. it seemed like a small miracle to me when i had my first dream of not being chased. the patterns im observing recently involve sewage in my room and myself, (which correlates to feelings of sickness and needing to get rid of stuff) and as of thre past few weeks, flying dreams which are a bit weird. there is less anxiety in these dreams--theres always a little eye icon where i can toggle whether or not im invisibkle to other people. i thinjk this is my desire to escape every situation i possibly can !! my only fear in these dreams is that the knowledge that im dreaming will somehow inhibitmy ability to fly because i know its not real

when i was younger i had a dream that i drowned in a black lake

thats kind of all i have for noew ill try asnd write more specific dreams in the future

classmates, keep dreaming about one girl, i joke about going to hell and she says something about god while holding my arms, she skips off to dance with someone else, my arms are all red everywhere with blood i think

alot more happened, the locations still are weird and unfamiliar. i failed some test that i wasn't able to prepare for due to some type of emergency or sidequest or illness (i couldn't even write anything even though the test was open everything & you could discuss answers w other students) so i ran out of the building of my school, out the gates, across the street and kept running forever like i have imagined but this time for real, the buildings were endless & i remember onoe was tomato reddish brown with cream trimming.

many people stuck in weird padded colored rooms and had to hide in rows(kinda like a tornado drill) in 1 room whennthis woman came arouond & we had to cover our bodies with pink gauzy paper stuff and she randooomly sentenced people too die or something worse tthan death idk, was more llikely to happen if yuor whole body wasn't covered.i survived the first round, and as i explored the building it looked more llike some weird school amalgamation. there was also a feature of soulmates which must have sucked cause any1 could have died, i watched people out of windows and found out information, i was more of an omniscient viewer except for when we were being selected to die

weird centipede like guy who started as an ai chatbot but i was transported into the actual world with full control over the situation(though this ddnt rly occur to me) he had a regular torso but a long centipede body in replacement of legs (OR MAYBE THAT WAS ME ACYUALLY I DONT REMEMBER) and i thnk he was a tomato farmer??and there were weird eugenics involved and my mom was there also but i was running away form her msot of the time, we were in a school-like labarynth/neverending mansion thing, there were the same gates as those other school dreams, also i think i keep dreaming about this one place i was in, in london for like 5 min it was so unimportant but its saved frever i guess!!i also had the Alternate My Room from my dreams (its like my regualr room but more closets and therees one i can go thru that leads into a secret room w my storage etc) except i didn go in the storaeg room and alot of my furniturewas gone and i wasnt sure why / anyways the centipede guy was super nice i rmemeber i was having troubule climbing this net thing cause it hurt my hands and he helped me up , idk the rest

i had taken some relaxing drugs maybe marijuana but i think psychidelics & i was so rrelaxed for the first time & was like "OOmg this is why people do this..." and i vaguely thought i hope i dont become a drug addict but i wasnt worried in the moment i was so relaxed. side note i think its funny whenever i dream abot taking meds and i fee lthe effects in my dreams (especiallly stuff ive NEVER had before) its mostly horrifying like my cocaine water dream because i thought i was awake. this dream wasnt horrifying it was just a few seconds of vague bliss

my mom was driving but i could see her body from a slightly above ground view as if im taller, she is crashing into multiple cars (kinda looks like a game of rush hour but bigger. i can see her contorting and i am screaming at my dad t come help her but he is busy chopping onions (which was vaguely relevantt but not enough for him to keep doing it) & i watchrd her crash into a tree and die, her body folded and she was like a sillhouette in the passenger seat, a mannequin with a bent neck

have had lotsa vague dreams in the same places with no plot i can remember. one was SO FREAKING WEIRD and rnded. w me recording people with a cool. city skyline and theywere walking n random stuff in. londonish streets , sky was sunsetting and i kept moving the camera framing to ge t the bestshot. in another fragment, i looked @ myself and the leg scars but there were alo more and bigger and they had sprread to my arms and it was like super vivid overlapping mostly healed. and totnight i thought i was awake while dreaming, checked my face in the mirror like twice to make sure i was real and i knew it was real bc my face was so detailed i could see all my teeth and eyes adn stuff (but ofc it wasnt real) and when i woke up in the morning i felt like i was dreaming for ages,

kepe having dreams with the high-up houses near powerlines that are like barns, and too much flying, dreams of my face distorting and bleeding/shapes poking out of my skin, dreams of myself as a skeleton, dreams of some female figure that im rurnning from, the weird cliff and lake near the resturauntish thing on the beach where if u go too far left its an almost new palce with sewer tunnels and grafitti that people r inside, and if u go in them for long enough there are rooms and then the forest. the forest had a land formation i remember from a skate park i went to at age 5 and have not seen since. its a sort of unique hilll i only see from a distanvce. the trees cover itnow. it looks like mountain biking terrrain. i never see rocks or focus on trees. its always a blur. im trying to remember

this night i dreamed something that was important and i forgot it completely

i have a dog kin d of husky looking named puddles, snd i hug it! there id more i forgot. i lookat my faecin a mirror its bleeding everywhere and teh skin gradually ruinss

dont remember much except i kept finding stag beetles (dead i thnik) on plants in my school yard and gtting so excited i kept screaming really loudly in happiness and like squealing LOLL i was so freakng happy!!! BETELE..

I am a skeleton again, tjis time for much longer, i can see myself moving and its even more anatomically incorrect im made of weird sharp boxes that are shifting w sharp bones jutting everywhere

[nothing notable but i will write regardless because im trying to keep track of the new dream locations.] recently i have seen many cliffs and woods and strange natural areas, playgrounds and such like a rock overturned in my mind and weird false memories swarming from beneath. i still have no clue as to what triggered this very sudden change, started maybe a year ago or so.

tonight i watched as two people i know used a camera to film one of them as he drove his bike out of a windowlike rooftop and dropped onto the grass below, seeming dead and unmoving but he was fine. i also dreamed about the show danny phantom, though it was some entirely new plot that had nothing to do with the actual show, but for some reason my brain decided that's what it was. in another dream, i was invited into a strange parking garage that lit up in rows while someone showed me his car collection. they were all moving towards me and i jumped over them, realizing that it was a challenge of sorts and easily survivable. in recent dreams, more than ever in my life, i have been flying and jumping off things with reckless abandon. sometimes it frightens me to jump,especially off of taller structures but usually i pay them little mind. i had a period of dreaming, i think during age 15 and maybe 14, where for once in my life i had dreams in which i wasn't being chased. those dreams are back now, honestly its more comforting to have such a familiar premise.i am very good at running and hiding in my dreams. though this time, sometimes the chasing is more of a subdued and buried idea, less panic inducing and present.

Some thing/female person that hates us is flying a plane aand dropping bombs on the world we occupy (in which we cant leave, im pretty sure) so we are running from the areas being bombed , and im constantly worried and paranoid looking over my shoulder, im terrified that my bad thoughts will affect the dream and make my worries true so i try to not think about it and reassure the idea that shes not here yet. in the beginning i have muliple companions but heir numbers dwindle through the duration of it until im left with one

a maze , one of my friends (some alien) ran through needing to accomplish our task, and had to get past all the people-- it was kind of like a lazy river i imagine, though my view was farther up. The alien ran through swallowing peoples bodies and attaching their heads to these amoebas automatically, like a slug with a human size head for example. - it had abused its power after saying it would no longer consume and affect living bodies, so it had to contact it's superior through some digital simulation. There were mostly cliffs by the sea with not much visible ocean. As the vision faded, all of their features and faces dissolved into mudlike apparitions. - in the middle of this dream i could visit some shopping store onlinw (amazon) which sold the most lovely dolls covered in moss and vines. There were several of the same male figure (vaguely different versions like generation loss or ai receeationa

I look down at mtself and I am a skeleton with skin thinly stretched over. I can see my acual bones jutting out sharply from my back. I didntt look human, the bone arrangement was not typical / This dream scared me alot for weeks after.

Multiple scenes I am in something i can more closely equate to the hunger games--except the people in it aren't really fighting each other, we are trying to run from other unknown forces basically just random terrain, inhabited by some native people, some speak english. There are a few large lakes and for some reason i notice monkeys in a few specific scenes there are alien people, i switch between being different ones There are two who are evil Metaphorically, and 1 who isnt evil, but they end up banding together - scene i remember well: - there is a line of people going through various jungle-gym like areas, more than 12, the leader is a youngish boy who looks cruel (or has been made so because of his position) he explains the rules to me: there must always be twelve people singing at once, there can't be more or less (any deviation results in punishment we all assumed was death/elimination) - i have to go into the line, part way while walking i realize Oh No!! I should be counting the people (because if you are behind people in line you dont know how many are singing or not) so i quickly etart counting, i get to the twelfth boy and he has a red shirt, blondeish hair and he Looks at me and he Knows he is the 12th person. Which is definately a role to have - we line up in a different formation after a while, more people have to join, i count them in fours(up until 12) and start singing, someone i Know joins - it reminds me of the photo of the school shooter, but they used his elementary choir photo instead of an updated version--thats what my brain did, putting that person in the youngest and most harmless version of themselves - i knew i would run up and hug them if i could Even though it was a Bad Person!Very - took photos with the people, like at camp i was the only person with a phone, - later i saw more monkeys and photographed tyem, i was by a lake, this woman talked to me in english that wasnt the best

I dreamed i was in an accident , so i was in a room with some people, not many but one was a girl from school, a younger girl i know and this guy came in (one of the ceno twins) and i was the first to notice something wrong, he had a blade in his hands & attacked me by slicigf (i dont remember well) i think my arm or somethijg (i was Literally Shocked at how easily i was overpowered) and he went for the younger girl next, i tried to shield her but it was very difficult because i - i was scared - people were moving and it was difficult - i didnt want to get hurt again cause he could slash my back now But i managed to mostly cover her though she was on the ground moving He went into another room i heard skin ripping a second time in a pattern and i could visualize worse wounds on someone elses arm (it could have been me but i dont think it was) but i saw it in my head + I was aware the other person was wounded worse than me Later i was watching youtube videos covering the event Also the rest of the dream i was running slash flying everywhere, in an area similR to backstage area of lion king + empty stage and set but make it alot larger and expansive

A woman creating destruction in an orb, shes making a planet in outer space. She creates a burst of fire, and then ice on opposite sides and they rotate in her grasp over a surface. Theres low-poly 3d creatures Of different colors, but i barely see them as living and more as a construction a concept like a cave painting. The 3d surface expands as she shoots out a hand here and there, saying some words i forgot but she curses nonchalantly like "what if i send this here?" And with a burst of her hands she expanda the entire thing to a planet size , and the spot of fire and ice transform into great pillars that wrap around the planet in a belt, splitting it into two and colliding at a perfectly cut point