this morning in the car iwrote:
first dream i had
A woman creating destruction in an orb, shes making a planet in outer space. She creates a burst of fire, and then ice on opposite sides and they rotate in her grasp over a surface. Theres low-poly 3d creatures
[As im writing this im having a tense conversation with my dad, and i drive by a river with a man trying to climb over the metal fence. My dad is convinced he was just on the other side and was going over into ours. I thought he was gonna run into the river from a great pit beneath]
Of different colors, but i barely see them as living and more as a construction a concept like a cave painting. The 3d surface expands as she shoots out a hand here and there, saying some words i forgot but she curses nonchalantly like "what if i send this here?" with. f word somewhere randomly in there
And with a burst of her hands she expanda the entire thing to a planet size , and the spot of fire and ice transform into great pillars that wrap around the planet in a belt, splitting it into two and colliding at a perfectly cut point
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that conncludes whta i wrote this morning! the rest of my dream was very complicated ad i dont remember it all, but i have been in the sameGeneral Dream Location for a while? atleast a few dreams. btw theres this Dream Place idk hwo many timesive seen it but i think alot and i only becameaware of it yesterday, itds a "House" infinitely expanding inwards (Like u can enter through any place no matter what, its likea wormhole)as long as its a House Area thru a door.) its basically a wormhole, and whathappens is when u enter, theres a exit that goes to another similar room, and ur stuck going thru different rooms over ad over (aas if AI is genereatig them as fast as possible)
and all of them share similar characteristics.usually the rooms are very Plain colors like beige, think faded photos of more vintage houses with vague furniture. Alot of them are also VERY SMALL or just Small. Cause i have been in small cabiinnet like rooms or tiny crawl spaces surrounded w/pillows [NO ACTUAL VENTS I THINK]
im trying to figure out what causes the dreams 2 have this, i wouldnt say being scared bc i am Always being chased in dreams, and the 1 main place i go i will explain(in dreams tehre can b like side plots but in the end, the overarching theme is I need 2 escape!
Theres also another dream place, its more like a massive map but its the same general. idea nont a specific locatio per say?
when im escaping, [it used to not be this way until about a few monnths ago], i runthrough these squareish streets that is a. mishmash of very nneighborhood ive lived in , theres tons of alleys and just squaer. houses. w details
the firdst timr i was in this locationn there. was a Lego Man in my dream! Thats how i marked that it was the first time, bc that was significant
also i've been flying in dreams ALOT more and i thinnk this is because over the past 2 years i have lost my full consciousnness in dreams. i used to always b able to go around and say to people in my dream 'im dreaming right now. i know you!' or 'i've never been in this dream b4 can u sho me where a Thing is' etc. and i could also wake myself up !! but now im only half connscious so my brain lets me fly bc i donnt think about it
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SO MY SECOND DREAM LAST NIGHT:
i got off track but the most vivid part i remember is:
escape from a glass house, in the house smth just happened where out of 2 people one was just tricked (each person has like a tiny mascot-like thing) but one is DORMANT hidden in a dark object, and i saw it come to life later and i was like OMG. THATS CRAZY. but the mascot was Goofy and got mad at its owner for some reason so it came 2 life and played piano really loud, these gorgeous dark chords theme song thing. And then i was like oh no! AND THEN IT got up and Left the piano but the music kept following it?? thru the house?? liek warping as it travelled
Then i left, annd i transformed into [some sort of vague creature, i think a praying mantis or a vague predatory bug but it could have been a lizard] and i gently hovered/fell down a rocky cliff face into a pond, thinking the whole time 'theres small bugs i could eat here' annd watching an ant colony on my way down
then i became human again [it just Now occured 2 me i wasnt wearing clothes, but that wasnt relevant at all in the dream LOL]
then i am in the forest mud trees area, an theres tons of white snails on the ground and im like YEAHHH andthe MOST LOGICAL THING TO DO is start immediately sticking them all over my bare. skin. Then they start. falling offSADFACE and im like "Oh yeah i remembe. now the snails dont stick"
but i found a. way 2 make it work and i. was like THIS IS COOL AF!!! I HAVE SMALL WHITE SNAILS ALL OVER ME!!!
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IM FAILING SCHOOL. AND CALIBER GIRL. IS BEING RELEASED
So i got 2 more detentions [alrdy served yesterday ad day b4!!] My "n" key is weird this week so thats why it might not show up typed alot. fyi if i skip it
im o academic. probation ! i have a 25 in geometry and a 27 in spanish and around a 50 in bio, and ithink an 80 to 100 for every other class. [the 100 is art]
what else irl news... my dad is getting Worse! Every day bro !! But we ball
the womans funeral was today, and i wonder if u can feel brain cells dissolving, and iwonder if she was aware could she feel half of her brain goiing cause it only took 2 hours? & i wanna kno w what it felt like, not myself but in written text
My brainn is dissolvinng thou because school........ AND YAY CALIBER GIRL IS RELEASING TODYA IM MEETING WITH FISH TO LISTEN WHEN IT COMES OUYT!!!
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I WROTE THIS A FEW DAYS AGO
this isnt a necessary read but just 4 fun and games, heres what i wrote yestrady i think maybe before..
I take 3 pills in the morning i stack them making a hut formation, i go to school and i leave, i have a splitting headache and nausea, i curl up on the bed and writhe and the computer falls off the bed, i take 4 pills and nothing helps, i go to bed. I wake up in the morning, take 3 pills, go to school 20 minutes late because my mom wanted to wash my hair, we almost run over a black cat and my mom screams and i cover my ears as she slams the breaks, get to school, go to detention, i leave school later, im told i am on academic probation (and have been for a while but no one has told me), my brother calls 4 times because no one has picked him up from school but my mom is taking a work call in the car with both hands off the wheel so she declines every call, i take another pill, i am at a Helping Persob's house to help with organization, she has a black cat and dog,
at school , someone i dislike tells me he was the one who held me back from hurting another guy when we fought a few months ago, the guy i fought described his horrific friend to me so i gave him a website url to send his friend, so i can ruin his friend permanently, he puts it in his pocket, i keep dreaming of the new school people in more of a witch hunting situation where i am being perpetrated: last dream there were twisting highways that spiral into the sky, unbelievably high twirling over each other. Me and a friend climb them together, i ask "what if a car comes along" and they say we will be over, its climbing statues at this point--we go one step at a time, im behind but i catch up,
I save them from falling off, gripping each other's wrists and they betray me and throw me off, but im not falling , my arms rest on the marble and we try to hurt each other, i am gonna kill the other person
Later im flying, up in the air in an arena
with my fingers i point at people and turn them into wild beasts temporarily (like animalistic demon bulls in vague shapes)
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